I Memorized Every Apple Fact. Still Hungry

I used to memorize apple facts like prayers. Malus domestica. 16 pounds per person annually. Three-quarters of the fiber in the skin. I could recite quercetin benefits while standing in produce aisles, calculating if this medium apple was worth the 95 calories. I knew pectin supported gut health, but my stomach still clenched with anxiety every time I ate. The research felt like armor. If I understood the science, maybe I could trust myself around food. Seven thousand apple varieties exist worldwide, but I only allowed myself the same organic Honeycrisp, weighed and logged. I thought knowledge would quiet the noise. Instead, I became a walking nutrition database who forgot what hunger felt like. One evening, eating my pre-portioned apple slices, I realized something brutal: I could recite every antioxidant benefit, but I couldn't remember the last time food brought me actual joy. All that research. Still so hungry inside. #FoodFacts #ControlIsExhausting #HealthyObsession #Health #Diet