The Night I Chose Energy Over Healing

I used to think the answer was more energy—more caffeine, more push, more hours awake. I’d grab an energy drink before the gym, chasing that sharp, jittery edge that made me feel like I was doing something right. But I never talked about the way my hands shook, or how my muscles ached in a way that didn’t feel like progress. I told myself the soreness meant I was getting stronger, but I ignored the heaviness that lingered, the exhaustion that didn’t fade. No one warns you that the things you use to keep going might be the same things holding you back. I wanted to repair, to grow. Instead, I just kept breaking. #ControlIsExhausting #BodyCheckChronicles #NotJustAboutTheScale #Health #Diet