Numb Before the Interview
Tomorrow, I’m interviewing for a job I barely prepared for. Normally, I’d stress for days, researching the company, practicing design terms, prepping answers, and mapping parking spots. I’d rehearse endlessly, telling myself, “This is my best shot.”
Last time, I nailed every stage—from calls to office visits—but got rejected anyway. The silence after Monday’s deadline crushed me. I obsessed over what I’d done wrong: Was I too quiet? Too eager? Did my shirt clash?
Now, I feel nothing. The call came, I scheduled it, but I couldn’t care less. Even the design test? Meh. I’m skipping prep.
Why write this? Maybe to justify my apathy. Or to steel myself for failure. Either way, I’m done pretending effort matters.
Wish me luck—or not. I’ll update after tonight’s “effort.”
#JobInterview #Burnout #Numbness #CareerStruggles #SelfReflection
