first, let me say I love God with all of my heart and soul, but that means sane. Sometimes I get mad with God I feel like he hates me sometimes because I know what I’m going through. They say he only gives you what you can handle I can’t handle this can’t handle not seeing my child and I’m doing everything right except I’m sick. I can’t get up and go outside and do things like normal people do because I can’t breathe good I wish I could get a break. Wake up tomorrow morning and just have a good day or I can go outside. Go get my nails done. See my daughter and then come back in the house. But I feel like God’s keeping me here and one spot why I don’t know I love you, God and I’m praying for a little break and we have some things that makes me feel good right now as far as seeing my daughter and make me happy let me go outside. I pray every day I pray right now that everybody gets a good night sleep good night I just had to vent.