Am I Just His Backup Plan? 😢💔

Three years in, and I'm questioning everything about us. 😔 Last week, I accidentally saw my boyfriend's phone and discovered his browsing history—all BBW and mature women content. I'm the complete opposite: slim, late twenties, nothing like what he's apparently attracted to. What makes it worse? His ex, who's also the mother of his child, fits his "type" perfectly. 💔 Every family gathering, every time she drops off their kid, I feel like I'm watching him light up in a way he never does with me. I can't shake this feeling that I'm just a placeholder until someone who actually matches his preferences comes along. The self-doubt is consuming me, and I feel like I'm living in her shadow every single day. Have you ever felt like you weren't really what your partner wanted? How did you handle feeling like the backup choice? I'd love to hear your experiences—maybe we can figure this out together. 💬 #relationshipstruggles #selfdoubt #familydynamics #FamilyRelationships